An update.

Everything is different than it was a year ago.
And I mean everything/

New job
No second job
New house
New friends
New focus
A totally fresh situation.

For better or for worse.
It's a bigger struggle than it was before.

Much of what I've spent my life building is gone, destroyed, heavily modified or just plain wrong for me at this time.

I'd like to say that I'm happy.  But that isn't true.
I'd like to say that I'm successful, but that isn't true.

At this point it's become a race to see who drowns last.
Right now I feel like my lungs are full of air but my arms are getting tired.