1,2,3,4

1. You started it all. I traveled roads unknown and discovered things about the world which previously I could not comprehend.
As things disintegrated, I found myself behaving very badly for a number of years. At one point, you just drove away and disappeared.
I can't help but think that things are better the way they turned out.

2. Toward the end of the bad years, you were there for me. But time was always short. I think we always knew that it was temporary.
You flew away and never came back.

3. Someone I've always wanted but can never have. Again, things are better this way.

4. You came along, we made a pact to fight the dragons together. Still at it. I'm no knight in shining armor, but doing what I can.

I could keep counting for days. Things in my mind are arranged into lists and categories and interconnected relationships. Everyone I've encountered has offered some kind of value and takeaway contribution to my life experience.

As I approach the crest of the hill, I can't help but look at everything in hindsight, as the clarity is so great that direction. "They say life makes sense backwards, only you've gotta live it forward."

Rolling on, pushing forward.

Funked out

Lately I've been pretty bummed out.

I was looking forward to a good long summer of hard work and U2 concerts- starting with the tour opener in Salt Lake City on June 3rd. Hoping to get to a couple more shows around the US and perhaps in Europe this summer/fall.



But alas- Bongo had to go hurt himself. Cancel the entire US tour.

May 21, as the news broke, the show had already started building in the SLC stadium. At first I took it personally because only SLC was canceled. 4 days later other dates were canned. The early cancellation of SLC was surely to explain why construction of the stage was being reversed.

Now they're saying that there will be shows next year. I remain skeptical- they are all really old. At some point things just stop being worth it.

If the next tour is Bonzo in a wheelchair croaking his way through a greatest hits package, I want a refund.
If they are going to slow down, they might as well stop now.
If this is the end, and it very well could be, what does it mean?

My favorite U2 song (and song in general) is 'Bad'
'Bad' has been played live by U2 475 times. Starting in October of 1984 and most recently played at Soldier Field in Chicago on 9-12-2009. That's the night I had impulsively grabbed my lady and said 'Let's go to Chicago to see a show or two.'
What if they never play 'Bad' again?
'Pride (in the name of love)' was also played for the last time that night. That's the song U2 has played the most over the years- a total of 773 times. It suddenly disappeared and hasn't returned.
"40"- 483 x. Last time was after 'Bad' in Chicago. How long can we sing this song?
'All I Want is You' has only been played 285 times live, but the last time? December 2006 in Hawaii. Yeah. I was there. Feeling a bit guilty.
'Bullet the Blue Sky'? Same night.
'I Will Follow'? (the #2 song on the list at 768) Hawaii.
"Miss Sarajevo'? Honolulu.
'The Fly' Same.

I'm killing them.